With a new season comes major changes

On Monday, Dominic moved out. As I just typed those words I have a strange mix of emotions. I wish that I could say exactly why he left. I wish that I could say that we had been fighting and so this is the route we elected to take. But I can say none of those things. My home life has been normal. There have been no explosive fights. There has not been any contention. About a month ago Dominic started hanging out with some new people. That is the only change. So, my husband decided that he was moving out on Monday and he could care less about me or the kids. He is not willing to discuss anything or attempt to make things right. My moods change minute to minute right now. Once second I am livid and the next I am hurt. I would imagine that is normal. I hurt for my children. I am scared because this is a whole new life. When I got divorced from my first husband it all made so much sense. I knew what I needed to do. Unfortunately after I left, I made some bad moral choices in my dating life that cost me my church membership. I have repented from that and I am now an active, endowed member of the church. My problem is this, I do not know how to be single and LDS at the same time. I know that sounds crazy. But it is true. I am grieving right now at the loss of my marriage. Gosh this hurts! I know that I need to get rid of the anger that I have because unless I do the Holy Ghost can not dwell within me. My family NEEDS the comfort of the Holy Spirit! I am trying to be strong and in all that is going on right now but part of me wants to curl up and cry. I feel so bad for my kids. They are having a tough time with this. A good friend of mine said to me the other day that I deserve to be happy, I deserve to have a strong priesthood holder over my family and I do not have those things. I am obedient in the gospel. My patriarchal blessing talks about me going through the temple with my spouse and having an eternal family. I deserve an eternal family!
Last night I was speaking with my Bishop and we were talking about how hard I have tried in this marriage and he said something that I will never forget: "Our Heavenly Father is perfect & loving and HE lost 1/3 of his children." That has made me think. I can not blame myself for Dominic's decisions. They are his alone.