As I was getting to bed last night, I realized that everyone was gone! My house did not have a guest staying with us. It was kinda sad. The kids were quietly sleeping and I had the opportunity to think about things that have gone on over the last 5 weeks. Dominic's mom was here for a few weeks and then my mom was here for a week. It is funny how you can get used to people being in the house and it just becomes natural. It is also nice when I have someone at the house to look after Gianna and Nick when Dominic and I just need a break. I now am here in Northern California without any extended family. If I did not love my job so much I would be outta here. I am trying to understand why my Heavenly Father wants me here (in Nor Cal). The people that I care about most (besides the husband and kids) are not here.
I think that I am just struggling emotionally right now. I am really struggling with my calling at church, I am struggling in my marriage, I am struggling financially, Aryanna is still not speaking to me. There is just so much on my plate. I am so very grateful for so many things that I have. I know that I am really fortunate. Maybe today is just one of those days that we all have where I wish that I could just curl up in bed and let the day pass me by.
I have been blessed with so much love and support around me. I have been blessed with wonderful children, a nice home, a BEAUTIFUL car! It is interesting to me how much family affects how you feel day to day.
I really enjoyed my mom being up here. I wish that she could have stayed longer. We had a great time and she helped out so much. Thanks again mom for getting so much work done while you were here!
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